• I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    I’ve been spending my day staring at the wall and tweaking my decorations then staring some more.

    It’s a lot more relaxing than it sounds.

    Here’s a bad picture of my Halloween tree.

    And the holidays begin!

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    As I am not amused by being woken up by the worst of lies spread on one side and on the other, what would be the worst of lies if it weren’t for that being said on the other side.

    As known.

    I am not a racist shitbag who hurts children. I shouldn’t even have to point this out but their vile lies are spreading.

    However, as they are continuing to make certain I can’t so much as volunteer in the library, such clarification needs to be made.

    One accusation being so vile its mere utterance destroys careers because up till Mary’s bullshit no one would stoop so low as to lie about that.

    They accused transgender individuals of perversion for wanting to pee in peace. But they didn’t go as far as Mary did,

    And now my neighbor.

    I’m woman enough as born so, it’s weird some ever questioned it. Bizarre that such doubts were used as excuses for such lies.

    The strangest thing though, apparently I missed baiting because I was more puzzled than offended.

    But now I get the impression, if you’re not pissy, bitchy, and nasty , some think there’s something wrong with you.

    I should have been upset not oblivious.

    Over a detail too small to argue about.

    So here’s how it is.

    I don’t like being angry.

    At a certain point it makes me severely suicidal.

    And before that I find it scars my soul

    As for the “wind her up and watch her go”

    I find you an unpleasant manipulative arsehole and would rather not.

    Since I am again surrounded by the assholery of “just seeing what I’m made of” it’s total and entire disinterest in pissing matches.

    Please stop interrupting my mood and intruding on my thoughts.

    I have other concerns that don’t involve pissy neighbors

    Thank you

    I mean, seriously?
  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    What someone digs into every wound to get a reaction, hacks your entire digital life, invades your privacy and comments on everything down to a fart, nit picks, micromanages, fucks with your writing live, and has a “rally” dedicated to her fuckery?

    She’s an abusive, vile, invertebrate bottom dweller.

    The person who is pushed and prodded into a reaction might swear. Might be unpleasant. But is not abusive.

    Abuse is about power and control not insults. And people use insults as a part of reactive abuse – true. But when the victim responds it’s human nature not power and control.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    I’m vaguely asleep when I hear “Everything was going to plan then Joshua got involved .”

    If they were having “a conversation” next door it explains getting knocked out by counter sound.

    Still I went back to sleep.

    Apparently my subconscious was asked a question and didn’t reply fast enough.

    “Answer the question” from the new bitch next door.

    There seems to always be someone who is abusive with a shitty perspective who uses reactive abuse to try to control others

    Maybe make me forget?

    What. I don’t know. I was fucking asleep.

    They dropped the counter sound and I became aware of a group.

    But she’s one of those vile individuals who argues that because I’m now on disability and she’s not that she somehow owns everything I do, uses it as an excuse to invade my privacy and prospect gamble – further ruining my life.

    I don’t know if she pays taxes or is just wriggling around reality like a worm. But snapping back was “judged” by someone I don’t care to know. Has no power over anything I do. But is a fan of reactive abuse too

    All because I might have heard something while I was sleeping.

    Boy does this sound familiar…

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Think of a six headed balrog.

    Cognitive abuse causing driving and piloting difficulties

    Blue tooth “gremlins” in the world war 2 sense of “WTF is wrong now?”

    Reality abuse soundscapes making us afraid to go out.

    Troll bot torturing with an emphasis on “popcorn music” the fibromyalgia frequency and suicidal frequency. Though anyone who resists is likely to get the trident fork headache that also kills cognition.

    Troll bot automated attacks with suicide and oblivion the directives

    Hacking important databases like medical and legal records Most likely an issue for storage than live functionality but potentially that too.

    The rumors and false evidence that can destroy lives and careers

    And speaking of such. The deletion of decades of work.

    Let’s not forget the Trollbot music! Oh the sodding variety there. Some dangerous to the heart!

    The most stragic date is December 23, 2026

    And the most strategic targets are playing a prospect gambling game with certain software.

    I don’t know how you organize but it’s hooks are in all your computers

    I am not the only person in the way. Just one of the more obvious victims

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Factors? Would be good to know.

    Historical analysis to cook up a crisis

    Mass suicides bigger than Jamestown

    Using every angle I’ve already talked about

    Victims and gamblers aside

    They plan to

    “Go Big”

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Please ignore the gamblers and social engineers who drum up crisis after crises for me to go through so they can bet on it.

    It’s not that these dimensions to life don’t exist. But each and every time the topic derails into “but Sylvanna”

    And money exchanges hands when their predictions comes true.

    And now. If I just do the dishes or some such?

    What you do becomes the subject of the gamblers stirring up conflict where they shouldn’t be any. And ignoring actual issues.

    .

    It’s called prospect gambling

    There are articles on it

    And others affected

    Maybe eventually someone else can get it outlawed

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    So.. symptoms cleared up overnight yesterday but I was still a bit itchy. The doctor thought allergies and I was doubtfull

    And itchy

    Just less so.

    But by my weird fractured feeling I woke up with suggests it was an intense drop in stress so severe my body didn’t know what to do.

    Which is still a histamine reaction.

    But makes a lot more sense.

    We all feel like this sometimes
  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    Scroll to the end – past the pictures

    https://sylvannadevlin.com/2026/09/12/potential-outbreak/

    PS according to the results of my nose I’m through the worst already – But very itchy!

    Itchy but with fewer splotches but everywhere like it’s in my bloodstream.

    An itch you can’t stop but scratching puts on pause.

    Lips, nose, ears, eyes, scalp, previous areas

    Today with few visible signs

    My nose is stuffing up but my immune system slowing down. And my tongue hurts like hell at the tip and popped during the night.

    Sore throat!

    Considering the way my itching erupted when I scratched places like the back of my legs?

    Seems in the blood.

    Since my legs are so sore – down to the bones. And my hips keep convincing me we are becoming paralyzed; it’s a yuck self quarantined day!

    Difficulty organizing thoughts and communicating

    Rash that gos everywhere and sometimes starts blubbery like a battle with a huge number of swelling rash type markings.

    And I’ struggling to see this, to type. And with dizziness while passing out repeatedly.

    Now I’m out. Everyone else was in Portland Oregon last night – so if I associated with anyone their contacts are at risk.

    Will update if there’s anything major – or once the danger has passed.

  • I was a writer. Now I seek more to life.

    I understand the lack of knowledge of what AI warfare involves.

    It’s new and mostly not discussed.

    So I understand you might not fully realize the impact of these events.

    We are about to enter a new Cold War.

    You might not be able to see the power of words with a digital signature the size I have. All the decades writing and saving iterations

    If it were not worth it?

    They would find another writer- one more likely to fold.

    As far as potential impact for any development for live cybersecurity?

    Both categories involved would be greatly aided

    Think of it as a key to develop a digital warhead of nuclear proportion.

    It’s the only explanation for why they will resort to terrorism to try to torture into my contribution.

    People with agendas

    Potentially arms dealers

    Think about what you are doing. If it’s worth this much prolonged damage? Driving people to suicide? Ripping into our society?

    Just maybe it’s valuable enough to protect.